God,
I want to stop thinking about living my life
And actually live it.
I want to stop thinking - -
Will people like me if I do this?
And throw my inhibitions to the wind.
Dress up not because I am going somewhere fancy,
But because I am fancy.
Eat better because it is good for me,
Not because I'll be thinner.
Have dessert, and not stress.
Cultivate moderation. And happiness.
I want to -
No, need,
To live in the now
Not in the 'what if?'
Oh gosh, this is EXACTLY how I've been feeling, mixed with a little bit of self-loathing at the fact that I sit and think about living instead of actually getting up and doing it. Lately, all I've been doing is thinking, "what if, what if" and it's done nothing for my happiness. Live in the now, good reminder :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much! It's good to know someone feels the same way. I've been trying to combat self-loathing with encouragement. But not to myself, to others. Trying to find ways to brighten other people's day brightens my own tremendously.
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