different.

today has been rather... blah. not that blah is bad. because blah is nice for a change instead of crazy.

see, i love crazy. we have a great relationship, in which crazy dictates my life a lot.

blah and i rarely meet. see, i sorta feel that when blah wants to get to know me better, i get boring. i don't want to be boring.

so i automatically go to crazy.

which i shouldn't.

but should i go to normal?

or just different?

cause i think normal is sorta like just managing. but different... now i think i could get along real well with different.

different in the sense that i could fade into the background every now and then instead of focusing on me. but not always be the wallflower.

different in the sense that i could start handing out compliments to others instead of begging for them on the metaphorical street corners.

so. i think its time for different to be my new change. for people to say, "hey, now, she's different. but in a good way."

was there a point to this post? to be quite frank, i'm not sure. sometimes rambling feels nice.